Wow, it’s been a long time since I sat down to write anything, let alone something to put on a blog.  I have been on a journey lately, though, that I would like to share and hopefully, it will be helpful to some.

Some months ago, better part of a year by now, I began experiencing slight bleeding in places I shouldn’t oughta be bleeding from.  And by slight I mean, once in awhile, pale in color, just minute spots at first, then more often and a little more in quantity and darker in color.  It was then I realized this was by no means normal and it was early October that I first contacted my doctor for a preliminary appointment.  By the time the appointment took place, I had had to purchase panty liners as there was almost always more than just a small amount of bleeding going on and the color ranged from red to brown to red again.

Being post menopausal for many, many years, this was more than disconcerting!!  Not only that, but I knew there would have to be my least favorite physical procedure–a pap smear, UGH!, and the usual well-woman testing initially.  What followed after the test results came back was a round of more uncomfortable testing in mid November…a mammogram, bone density, and a trans-vaginal ultrasound.  Once those results came back, it was off to be examined by a gynecologist who then scheduled an appointment for a D and C under a local anesthetic (my choice).  Those results showing cancer lead to a gynecologic oncologist who, after his own examination and questioning, recommended surgery–a total hysterectomy including some lymph nodes and surrounding fatty tissue due to cancer being found in multiple fibroid tumors in the uterus.  Yay me.

The day after Christmas found me at the hospital doing pre-op testing to make sure I was strong enough for surgery and by New Year’s Day I was doing the proverbial colon cleanse (and may I say, YUCK, YUCK, YUCK, YUCK to that process.. but, on the up side, I bet I lost several pounds that day?!) in preparation for surgery the next day.

Arrival time was 9:30 a.m. with surgery to take place at 11:30. I arrived earlier than that, but they started right away to get me ready with the needles, tubes, saline water, meeting of the particulars (anesthetist, other doctors to be present, my own doctor, etc.).  At the appropriate time, I was wheeled out of the prep area and down the halls to the operating “theater”.

I seriously wish I could have had a video of the surgery itself because it was done robotically.  A new process called the daVinci System.  I barely saw the “robot” out of the corner of my eye when I was being moved into the operating room before it was lights out for hours!  The “machine” itself looks like a giant robotic spider operated by the surgeon from a nearby station with controls that he utilizes to make the 5 small incisions, do all the cutting, suturing etc. on the inside and then when the surgery is done, the incisions are closed with glue, usually.  Of course, it’s still major surgery, all the same things can go wrong as with regular hysterectomies, but there is less blood loss and supposedly a faster healing time, although that may be up for grabs in my opinion. Other physicians are there to assist with various portions of the surgery, as well as the anesthetist, but basically it’s a pretty cool concept.  Video games come to the operating room!  And, it’s already being used by physicians who may be traveling or living in other countries to operate long distance.  Wow!

According to my kids, who were frantic to get news of what was going on since they were unable to be at the hospital during the surgery, my  surgery had been placed on hold for a few hours due to complications with the person being operated on just prior to me.  But by about 7:00 pm I was in my own little hospital bed (I vaguely remember them transferring me off of one bed to the other) all hooked up to tubes and such, feeling very sore.

I decided, while being a resident in the hospital for 2 days, that it must be a rule in the hospital to annoy the victim patient by waking them up every hour for blood pressure and temperature checks, pills, and so forth.  I did have my own little button for morphine tho’… that was nice, but also disconcerting.  Felt a little like a junkie.  The food was less than to be desired.. beef boullion, coffee, cranberry juice, water, but oh, the strawberry Jello was to die for!!!  Spent the next day and a half on liquids until the doctor came in and said “Why is she on liquids?  Give her some food!”  Yay!!  And, of course, there’s always that one nurse who plays the devil’s advocate to get you up and walking, a lot.  Although I didn’t appreciate her right at that moment, she was my favorite overall…Linda. What a sweet heart and we had some really nice conversations before I left on Sunday afternoon, January 4th.

I am now home and although everything seems to have gone well, one of my incisions popped open early on and began dribbling clear liquid.  That went on for almost a week and a half, causing me to scramble to find a way to contain the liquid.  Maxi pads and tape to the rescue!  There’s more than one use for maxi pads!!  Since then I have had my first post-op appointment a week ago. It went well and one doctor complimented me on my ingenuity in the maxi pad thing because the incision looks good and is healing well.  As a whole, because of the size of the tumor, the doctor is keeping a close eye on me for the next two years at least, to make sure it doesn’t return.  Not only does that make me feel good, but the doctor and his whole office seem very open to questions and concerns by their patients.

Now, may I say, this whole experience makes me feel like I’ve been through a whirlwind!  I really have not experienced fear at the sound of the word “cancer” like some folks do.  Perhaps that is because I have such confidence in my Lord Jesus, that I know that cancer is just another thing that He has dominion and control over.  I gave Him my life at the age of 18 and this is just one more thing that belongs to Him.  I am in His loving Hands– and the two of us together can handle anything that comes my way.  He knew it was coming many, many, many years before I did, and He has a good plan for my life.  No matter what happens in the future, I can trust Him to walk with me through the storm and lead me in peace beside still waters.

You can trust Him too.  Have confidence in God because He loves you in ways you can’t even imagine.  Cancer?  No problem.  He’s got you!