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tree by a river“[Most] blessed is the man who believes in, trusts in, and relies on the Lord, and whose hope and confidence the Lord is. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters that spreads out its roots by the river; and it shall not see and fear when heat comes; but its leaf shall be green.  It shall not be anxious and full of care in the year of drought, nor shall it cease yielding fruit.”  Jeremiah 17:7, 8  The Amplified Bible

Just a short post today with a Scripture I read this morning.  Have confidence in God and be blessed!


Wow, it’s been a long time since I sat down to write anything, let alone something to put on a blog.  I have been on a journey lately, though, that I would like to share and hopefully, it will be helpful to some.

Some months ago, better part of a year by now, I began experiencing slight bleeding in places I shouldn’t oughta be bleeding from.  And by slight I mean, once in awhile, pale in color, just minute spots at first, then more often and a little more in quantity and darker in color.  It was then I realized this was by no means normal and it was early October that I first contacted my doctor for a preliminary appointment.  By the time the appointment took place, I had had to purchase panty liners as there was almost always more than just a small amount of bleeding going on and the color ranged from red to brown to red again.

Being post menopausal for many, many years, this was more than disconcerting!!  Not only that, but I knew there would have to be my least favorite physical procedure–a pap smear, UGH!, and the usual well-woman testing initially.  What followed after the test results came back was a round of more uncomfortable testing in mid November…a mammogram, bone density, and a trans-vaginal ultrasound.  Once those results came back, it was off to be examined by a gynecologist who then scheduled an appointment for a D and C under a local anesthetic (my choice).  Those results showing cancer lead to a gynecologic oncologist who, after his own examination and questioning, recommended surgery–a total hysterectomy including some lymph nodes and surrounding fatty tissue due to cancer being found in multiple fibroid tumors in the uterus.  Yay me.

The day after Christmas found me at the hospital doing pre-op testing to make sure I was strong enough for surgery and by New Year’s Day I was doing the proverbial colon cleanse (and may I say, YUCK, YUCK, YUCK, YUCK to that process.. but, on the up side, I bet I lost several pounds that day?!) in preparation for surgery the next day.

Arrival time was 9:30 a.m. with surgery to take place at 11:30. I arrived earlier than that, but they started right away to get me ready with the needles, tubes, saline water, meeting of the particulars (anesthetist, other doctors to be present, my own doctor, etc.).  At the appropriate time, I was wheeled out of the prep area and down the halls to the operating “theater”.

I seriously wish I could have had a video of the surgery itself because it was done robotically.  A new process called the daVinci System.  I barely saw the “robot” out of the corner of my eye when I was being moved into the operating room before it was lights out for hours!  The “machine” itself looks like a giant robotic spider operated by the surgeon from a nearby station with controls that he utilizes to make the 5 small incisions, do all the cutting, suturing etc. on the inside and then when the surgery is done, the incisions are closed with glue, usually.  Of course, it’s still major surgery, all the same things can go wrong as with regular hysterectomies, but there is less blood loss and supposedly a faster healing time, although that may be up for grabs in my opinion. Other physicians are there to assist with various portions of the surgery, as well as the anesthetist, but basically it’s a pretty cool concept.  Video games come to the operating room!  And, it’s already being used by physicians who may be traveling or living in other countries to operate long distance.  Wow!

According to my kids, who were frantic to get news of what was going on since they were unable to be at the hospital during the surgery, my  surgery had been placed on hold for a few hours due to complications with the person being operated on just prior to me.  But by about 7:00 pm I was in my own little hospital bed (I vaguely remember them transferring me off of one bed to the other) all hooked up to tubes and such, feeling very sore.

I decided, while being a resident in the hospital for 2 days, that it must be a rule in the hospital to annoy the victim patient by waking them up every hour for blood pressure and temperature checks, pills, and so forth.  I did have my own little button for morphine tho’… that was nice, but also disconcerting.  Felt a little like a junkie.  The food was less than to be desired.. beef boullion, coffee, cranberry juice, water, but oh, the strawberry Jello was to die for!!!  Spent the next day and a half on liquids until the doctor came in and said “Why is she on liquids?  Give her some food!”  Yay!!  And, of course, there’s always that one nurse who plays the devil’s advocate to get you up and walking, a lot.  Although I didn’t appreciate her right at that moment, she was my favorite overall…Linda. What a sweet heart and we had some really nice conversations before I left on Sunday afternoon, January 4th.

I am now home and although everything seems to have gone well, one of my incisions popped open early on and began dribbling clear liquid.  That went on for almost a week and a half, causing me to scramble to find a way to contain the liquid.  Maxi pads and tape to the rescue!  There’s more than one use for maxi pads!!  Since then I have had my first post-op appointment a week ago. It went well and one doctor complimented me on my ingenuity in the maxi pad thing because the incision looks good and is healing well.  As a whole, because of the size of the tumor, the doctor is keeping a close eye on me for the next two years at least, to make sure it doesn’t return.  Not only does that make me feel good, but the doctor and his whole office seem very open to questions and concerns by their patients.

Now, may I say, this whole experience makes me feel like I’ve been through a whirlwind!  I really have not experienced fear at the sound of the word “cancer” like some folks do.  Perhaps that is because I have such confidence in my Lord Jesus, that I know that cancer is just another thing that He has dominion and control over.  I gave Him my life at the age of 18 and this is just one more thing that belongs to Him.  I am in His loving Hands– and the two of us together can handle anything that comes my way.  He knew it was coming many, many, many years before I did, and He has a good plan for my life.  No matter what happens in the future, I can trust Him to walk with me through the storm and lead me in peace beside still waters.

You can trust Him too.  Have confidence in God because He loves you in ways you can’t even imagine.  Cancer?  No problem.  He’s got you!


Staying Free of Fear

Having managed to move past what for some is the most fearful time of year, Halloween, it begs the question “How can we stay free from fear?”

MaskWhen I was four years old and staying for a couple of weeks at the end of October with my grandma in St. Charles, MN, the doorbell rang.  I made the unwise choice of answering the door before she could get to it and there, under the porch light stood two individuals, not much taller than I, in the most grotesque rubber masks (at least I hoped they were masks) shouting “Trick or Treat!!!” at the tops of their lungs.  To say I was frightened, was an understatement, but I don’t think I went all hysterical or anything.  But that incident did, apparently, leave a lasting impression on me.

To this day, even as an adult, I prefer to walk on the other side of the block or shopping mall away from anyone wearing a mask. I never sat on Santa’s lap, or came anywhere close to an Easter Bunny, and when I had to work at McDonald’s in the ’80’s helping with Ronald McDonald shows, I was good around the actor who became Ronald, but when he was in costume, I was nowhere to be seen!  To say that I’m not a huge fan of clowns of any kind, nice or villainous, would be an accurate statement.

As a child, I certainly never thought in these terms, but as I grew and became more aware of my own emotions and thoughts, I realized that seeing someone in a mask was all about lies. I wanted to see truth, the real person, not a fake, not an act, not a lie. I want to know what’s right, what’s wrong, what’s truth, what is a lie, so I can make an educated decision about it and make the right choices for me.

That being said, we live in a world of lies and deception, fakery, and illusion.  Our movies and TV programs are filled with it and often they only seek to instill fear.  We honor and adore actors who portray heroes and villains for their acting capabilities to make us believe the lies and enjoy the fear — at least for the moment.

But in the real world, there are plenty of fearful things going on and the media plays to that and makes things seem so much worse than  reality would dictate.  Racial issues, diseases from only God knows where, strife, tensions, financial woes, power struggles — personal and world wide, murders, suicides, kids on drugs, unspeakable evil seems to be rampant.  Fear of the future, Fear of lack, Fear of sickness and disease, Fear of loss.  As the Apostle John says in one of his letters to the church, fear has torment.  Where does it stop, and when?

Well, as with everything, it stops — or at least the hold that fear has on us stops — when we choose to believe what God says, rather than what the world, the flesh (us, our mindsets), and the devil says.  Why live in fear when there is a better way?  We were created for God’s pleasure and as a way for Him to show us His love and mercy.  He is the God of peace, not fear. The reason we get into the messes we do is because we are searching for peace, love and joy in all the wrong places.


Let me share some of God’s words that may help you if you feel fear today (or any time):

“7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control.”  2Timothy 1:7  Amplified Version


“10 Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.”  Isaiah 41:10  Amplified Version


Memorizing Scripture, rehearsing them in your mind, quoting them, putting them in first person — all are great ways of getting the Word of God down in your spirit so that when those times of fear come, you can recall them and remind yourself that God is bigger than any fearful thing you might encounter.  He is in control, not your fears.peace

One of the coolest Scriptures in the Old Testament, and applicable to us all today, in my opinion, is Joshua 1:8, 9.  If we would take it to heart, I believe God will keep us safe from the fearful things in this world, and cause us to prosper in every area of our lives.

“8 This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have good [a]success.

Have not I commanded you? Be strong, vigorous, and very courageous. Be not afraid, neither be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  Amplified Version

Don’t be afraid….Be courageous and confident in God!








Cold Milk and Tar


Written a little over a year ago, but felt like sharing again. Hope you enjoy my little story! Don’t get stuck in the tar!

Originally posted on IVEGOTCONFIDENCE:

Doesn't this sound good on a hot summer day? Doesn’t this sound good on a hot summer day?

When I was a kid, about seven or eight years old, I remember living in Pocatello, Idaho near a fraternity house that was on the other side of the alley.  As it happened, we lived very close to the college so to have a frat house close by was not unusual.  One particularly warm summer day, I smelled the most awful smell and when I went to investigate I can remember seeing a big machine with this steaming hot, black gooey substance overflowing and dripping down its side and some men standing nearby, their clothes stained in black as well.  I couldn’t imagine what was going on at first, but those guys sure looked thirsty!  In my little girlish mind I thought I knew just the thing that would cheer them up — a cold glass of milk!  So, I proceeded to pour two or three glasses…

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Just a quick thought for today:

God gives rest to the weary and joy for the sorrowing.  Reference is Jeremiah 31:25 New Living translation.

If you are weary today or full of sorrow, God has just what you need.  Trust and have confidence in Him to lift you up and fill you with His joy.



“My friend Harry taught me that.  He chose to be the best of himself.  It’s the choices that make us who we are, and we can always choose to do what’s right.”… Spiderman 3Death of a Friend

I find this quote from the movie, spoken by Spiderman/Peter Parker about his closest friend Harry at his funeral, to be incredibly profound, and surprisingly wise.

What choices have you made that you regret?  And what choices have you made that you are the most proud?

During our lifetime, we are given multitudes of opportunities to make choices and I would challenge you today to consciously begin to make choices for right and good, and those that would be pleasing to the Lord God.

He made the ultimate choice to sacrifice His Son for us.  Could we possibly do any less for Him?

When I first sat down to create this blog, I had in mind that I would have mountains of things to say, and could “produce” a post every week, at least, that would touch the hearts of men and women and win them to Jesus in droves.  However, reality quickly set in and I realized that not only did the droves not show up, at least not yet, and my creative ability was not as creative as I had hoped, nor were my lofty goals of at least one post per week not coming about, I was left thinking that I would merely share my thoughts one at a time, once in awhile, and maybe, just maybe, one or two people would be blessed by whatever I felt led to share.

Of course, this whole venture was based on the Lord and how, over many years, He has helped me to have confidence in Him so, He is in charge and I am following as He leads, to the best of my ability.  Come to think of it, tomorrow, August 27th, 2014, will be my 46th birthday in the Lord.  On this same date in 1968, coming home from my first introduction to a Bible Study/prayer meeting, I was introduced to Jesus Christ, Savior of the World, the Creator and Keeper of my life.

Happy Birthday to Me--Thank you, Jesus!

Happy Birthday to Me–Thank you, Jesus!

It was a simple, loving group of intelligent and talented college students mostly.  We met in a home on a Tuesday night for about two to three hours where we sang, shared prayer requests, and learned about Deuteronomy 18.  For those who are not familiar with this passage from Scripture, it has to do with God’s perspective on astrology, mediums, the occult in general.  I remembered this Bible study distinctly because for several years, I had fancied myself as having somewhat of a clairvoyant gift, and had been fascinated by this subject and anything that was “stranger than science” for some time. 

For a first time Bible study goer, this study couldn’t have been better designed for me if I had designed it myself.  There was much very interesting discussion with lots of other scriptural references, but the gist of the whole study was that God has a very strong displeasure for the whole subject of the occult and considers it an abomination.  I have to say, I was a bit stunned because I was not expecting this.  I was under the impression these were gifts from the Lord and was to find out that they are merely forgeries to God’s true gifts from 1 Corinthians 12-14.  Fortunately for me, my whole motivation in life is to honor and please the Lord, so once I heard the Truth in the Word of God (which I never would have found on my own I suspect), I was willing and eager to give it up immediately.  Ok, so now what do I do?

On the way home from the meeting, my soon-to-become-mama-in-the-Lord, Lynda, shared the basics of what Jesus did for me and how I could know Him personally.  Although I had been in a Methodist church for years with my parents, I never heard the Truth shared with such simplicity.  Being the shy person that I am, scaredy cat actually, I declined her generous offer to pray with me right there in her car, but once inside my home it all came out in a two word prayer, “God help!” 

Certainly not pretentious, wordy, or full of embellishments, but it did the trick!  I didn’t feel any differently exactly, but I knew that I had touched the Throne and had been heard by Somebody.  As the days, months, and years progressed, I learned more and more about this Jesus and what He did for me that night. 

I’m sure there are many of you out there who don’t know Jesus, other than hearing His Name as a swear word, or worse, but I can attest firsthand that He is real, He is loving, kind, gracious, ever present, and is the only source of Hope and Peace in this world.  He is Healing, Mercy, Provision, and so much

more.  If you need any of these things, reach out to Him.  He’s already reached out to you from the Cross.

As always, if I can be of any help to direct you to Him, please don’t hesitate to ask.  It would be my honor and privilege.

God Bless!


Once again I have run across an encouraging post that I think is worth sharing.  As we see our world crumbling before us, and the results of people’s mindsets running amok, it’s good to remember that we can change things in our little part of the world by focusing on the Word of God which never changes and is always there as an anchor when we start to sink.

When our thoughts are right, our speech will be right, and consequently our actions will follow suit.  It all starts in our little noggins!


Breaking Strongholds


“For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds.”

(2 Corinthians 10:4, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

Scripture tells us that there is a battle going on in our minds. Our thoughts dictate our actions. That’s why the enemy will do everything he can to get you thinking in the wrong direction. Sometimes, it’s not our own thoughts that are holding us back; sometimes it’s that we’ve believed the negative things that other people have spoken. Those words are like seeds. If you dwell on them long enough, they’ll take root and become reality.

In life, there will always be people telling you what cannot be done, speaking negative things. Too often we latch on to those negative words and develop what the scripture calls a “stronghold.” That’s a wrong thought or action that keeps us from God’s best. The way you break those negative strongholds is by rejecting the lie, forgiving the person, and embracing the truth of God’s Word. In other words, you have to choose to delete that negative file in your mind.

Today, why don’t you take inventory of your thought life? Ask yourself, “Where did these thoughts come from? Do they line up with what God says about me?” Break the negative strongholds and embrace God’s truth so you can be all that God has called you to be!


Father, today I choose to reject negative thoughts. I choose to reject lies from the past. I break every stronghold through the power of Your Word and embrace Your truth which sets me free in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen


Here’s a story about a good friend of mine and my daughter’s that I’d like to share with all of you. If you feel like going the extra step, as I have, and contributing to Dani’s special fund, please do. But most importantly, please Pray for Dani. Remember, that at any given moment on life’s journey, we all need each other to lend a helping hand. Give forward in any way you feel you’re able, wherever the opportunity arises. Trust me, God will bless you for it.

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Yep, I’ve been mostly mute this week. There were multiple things taking place that threw me off my emotional equilibrium. I tend to hunker down and ponder and analyze until I feel level again. ;)

One of those events I want to share with you here, today. For the purposes of this blog, I AM ACTUALLY USING REAL NAMES! I know, shocking.

When I lived in AZ, I met and was befriended by an amazing woman named Shonda. We were co-workers and friends, and grew to become like family. She was with me when I found I was pregnant with Maddie, she coached me through Maddie’s labor, and – due to a completely crazy scene at the hospital – she DELIVERED Moses’ head. The nurse made it for the rest of his body. Haha. Shonda often teased me that I needed to have a third child, so she could just…

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Come On In — Let’s Dance!

DWTS week 8 - Meryl and Maks - Rumba

DWTS week 8 – Meryl and Maks – Rumba

Derek Hough and Amy Purdy -- Tango

Derek Hough and Amy Purdy — Tango


Ok.  So…I have to admit that I have become a Season 18 Dancing With the Stars junkie.  Since my cable company removed the weekly programs from their “On Demand” menu a few weeks ago, I have resorted to watching the various cast members’ dance routines on Youtube — both on my computer and on my phone.  I could spend hours watching them all, and then I discovered there are gazillions of interviews from the after show as well.  I’m in heaven.   Well, not really, but I do enjoy all that stuff.  I think I’m starting to feel like a stalker.  Juuuussst Kiddding!

Alright, enough about me.  Is there anyone else out there who loves to watch this stuff like I do?  The idea of dance to express oneself, to dance skillfully, seemingly effortlessly is just an exhilarating feeling, I would imagine.  It makes me smile just to watch them create magic for all of us in the television audience.  I literally sat with a big, goofy grin on my face every Monday night throughout the entire season!

There were times of fun, comedic dance routines, some were dramatic, some romantic, but it was all there.  Anything you could ask for.  And I think this season, more than any other, was not so much about the end goal of winning the Mirror Ball Trophy, but the life journeys, lessons learned, personal growth of each of the participants, the relationships forged with all of the cast members and celebrities.  You could actually feel that they were all pulling for each other to be successful.  A very uplifting season.

Ok, that’s great on TV and for professional entertainers, but how does that correlate to the “real” world?  I mean we actually live 24/7 with our own warts, failings, short comings, inability to dance through this life as successfully as we would like.  And, let’s face it.  We have an end goal so much greater than the “plastic” Mirror Ball Trophy!  Our end goal is eternal life, Heaven, Jesus.

One of the things I have come away with while watching Dancing With The Stars this particular season is that the overall feeling of the show seemed to have changed from previous seasons.  There were several cast changes that might have helped and there seemed to be a more positive outlook altogether.  The pros and celebrities all seemed to be more open and able to express their real frustrations, to show themselves as real human beings with the same issues we might have under the same pressurized situations.

Candace and Mark -- Fox Trot

Candace and Mark — Fox Trot


How does that relate to those of us mere mortals?  Most of us already know that in order to have a more successful life in general, we must get rid of negative influences in our lives, which may include changing or eliminating certain groups or individual people from our sphere of influence.  Certain activities we participate in may be harmful and are keeping us from being positive and ultimately having success in our lives.  Our own attitudes of cynicism, prideful arrogance, anger, skepticism, unbelief, and so forth must be first recognized and then eliminated if we are ever to make good progress in our lives.  This is definitely true for the Christian.

Our Heavenly Father says we are to walk by faith, just like He does.  What does that entail?  Wow..what a question!  In part, I think it means that even if we don’t understand, we are willing to trust, have confidence in, rely on His love for us to bring what He has already said in His Word to pass in our lives.  As if it’s already happened.  Because, in reality, in the spiritual realm, it already has.

How to walk by faith is sort of a loaded question, but really it’s just a matter of trust.  Just like on DWTS, the celebrities are trusting their pro partner to teach them step by step and they learn to have confidence in them to catch them during a trick or a lift and to help them make it look effortless and beautiful to all who are watching.  Yes, it takes hard work and much time and effort, but the end result is so worth it!

Have you ever thought about dancing with God?  The Grand Ballroom is waiting…full of angels and those who have gone on before us to watch as you glide effortlessly across the golden floor with Him.  He will catch you, He will help you.  After all, He lovingly created you.

Come on in to the Ballroom.  Let’s dance!


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